Oh no!

Okay, so today was so fucked up! 

I binged on pancakes and purged right after it. 

But that's not the problem.. 

Because I'm sick I wasn't able to work today so I have to see my doctor now..

If he noticed that I purged I'm screwed. 

I'm so fucking anxious about it right now.. 

And the worst thing is that my lighter isn't working.. 

I really need a cigarette but I can't light them! I really hate my life. 

But there's also something good ! 

My daddy bought me new strawberries for my water so now I'm running around with my pink strawberry-water-bottle !

After my appointment with the doctor I'm going to see my girlfriend and I'm so happy I have her. 

Well I'll update tonight again.

Love you lil Satanicats ❤️

First day!

My first real post on my own blog. 

I'm Satanicat and I'm 19 years old. 

At the moment I'm slightly overweight but I struggle with my weight for 8 years now. 

Now I'm dieting again so I drink a hell lot of water and eat as little as possible!

I'm gonna post my food, exercises and other things about my everyday life. 

I work as a volunteer in an old-age home at the moment and I hate it. They send me there because they needed people who work for less money but I really want to get away from there. For now I am really sick and I hope they send me home tomorrow. 

It's 10:10 pm now so I'm going to do some sit ups and then go to sleep. 

I'll post longer texts tomorrow bc I'm really tired now.. 

Goodnight lil Satanicats! ❤️